As I lay

I’m in disbelief that she said this to me
Saying that she no longer wants to be in a
Relationship with me after we just got over
A small issue that lead to something big
Damn why me I thought I was doing to the right thing
You know being an honest and non-cheating boyfriend
Well I guess wasn’t enough?
As I lay tears start to fall rapidly
At times like these I feel like my mind and body should be decomposed
Why was I put on earth in the first place?
Was it to go throw so much adversity?
As I lay looking in the sky
Was it someone else in the picture?
I thought our relationship was picture perfect
O yea I know I saw that smug over my face but
At the time paid no attention so the signs
Maybe true love is hard to find….tears
Or is true love a thought of your imagination
Inferior thoughts races through my mind
Looking for clues to reassure my answer
But no evidence yet…..
As I lay wondering was this really going to last
You not being able to inform me of your anger
Leaving me to guess and go into arguments blind sided
Where is the love…?
I can’t seem to suck it up and stop crying
My heart won’t let me I don’t know why
But………
As I lay life has blessed me with a few things
On the other side